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WHY does life feel like it's falling apart?

Posted on 2008.08.30 at 20:54
Current Location: Rivendell
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Primeval on BBCAmerica
Love has passed me by completely. i dream of Estel every night, i guess things will always be this miserable.

please, Aragorn Elessar, if you are somewhere, out there, reach out to me. i need you....

life goes on, but it can't go on for me without you.

"The last journey of Arwen Undomiel", i remember my ada saying one time as i left to go West to Valinor. I returned to stay with you, Estel, but now once more you're gone. It just cannot keep going on and on and on like this.

I'm wearing the Evenstar right now. Lee got it in physicality from an uncle. but at the same time, i am the one who wears it in hopes that, eventually, i WILL find you. My hopes grow smaller and smaller each day though...but i wait for you. Or at least someone LIKE you.



brandon2431 at 2008-09-07 18:48 (UTC) (Link)

At least someone like you.

I will tell you up front that I am not who you are looking for....
but I have been mistaken for him by a therapist.
Please forgive me if the terminology I am about to use is incorrect....I have only been speaking for about five years at this point, this language is all very new to me.

If you find your Aragorn (and I hope you do), I would like to get to know him also. His character inspires me greatly. I have been in this body since about 1978, but only in the last five years have I been coming out and speaking. I often look to the characters Artagorn and Faramir in Lord Of The Rings, for an....inspiration, example, amybe I once again don't know the right word....when I need to do something difficult.

Suppose I should backtrack....I am a member of a multi 'system' (I didslike the word 'system'). I was finally forced in therapy to choose a name, and the name I chose was Forest, so now my name is Forest. (Because, that is where I prefer to live.) I have no idea where I am originally from, but I think I have lived before. I am very much a survivalist.
Anyway. You sound like someone I could be friends with....would you be interested in corresponding ?

Whether the answer is yes, no, or maybe, I do wish you all the luck in the world in finding the one you love.
Arwen, Rose, Cinderella
my_idbonds at 2008-09-10 00:02 (UTC) (Link)

Re: At least someone like you.

Please keep in touch.....i doubt at this point that he is even there. Rose had found the Doctor and for whatever reason he left, i suppose i'll have even less luck than that.

But at least i have friends.

Please keep in touch.

brandon2431 at 2008-09-10 05:28 (UTC) (Link)

Re: At least someone like you.

We're so excited taht you answered us! Thank you!

Forest isn't out right now, he's exhausted, getting ready to protect us from a psychiatrist on Friday....

But he's going to be *so* excited to talk to you! (He'd pretty much given up that you would answer, and he was disappointed, he really wanted to hear from you.)

Would you mind if we added you to our friends page ?
brandon2431 at 2008-09-10 05:32 (UTC) (Link)

Friends page

Actually, I'm kind of afraid you'll disappear, so I'd like to go ahead and add you to our friends page, and then if it turns out you didn't want me to I'll take you back off it, okay? I hope you don't mind.
(Please let me know right away if it's not okay, and I'll take you back off it right away.)

Again, i'm *very* glad we heard from you! Forest is going to be thrilled! If he wasn't so exhausted, we'd wake him up right now....hope you will understand why we didn't. He's got a big job ahead of him.
(But he might still read us the riot act for not waking
him up for this.) :)
Arwen, Rose, Cinderella
my_idbonds at 2008-09-12 22:53 (UTC) (Link)

Re: Friends page

We're all glad to have you.


brandon2431 at 2008-09-10 08:27 (UTC) (Link)

At least someone like you

Now I am awake (at the wrong hour), and so excited to hear from you.
I do know that I know you....from somewhere.

And I can not sleep just now, for wanting to hear from you.

I would not harm you by keeping you from finding the one you love....I think you know that.
But...I also feel like I know you, and you know me.

I feel like, finally, someone who knows me.

I've been very lonely in here, as it sounds like you are in there (for which I am so sorry.)

I look so forward to hearing from you....and *hope* I hear from you.

I hope it was meant to be, that we connect in some way.
I wish I could hear from you tonight.

I find myself wondering if you get outside much....in the world that is not made by humans. Wondering what music you listen to. Wondering how you came to be where you are (if you even know.) I hope you will tell me.

I *must* go to sleep! The others in here have a schedule to keep, and I must be prepared for Friday....

It;s so wonderful, though, to be so excited that I can not sleep. I have not felt this way since I first started taking the front here.

This is a bit of a hard life for me....is it for you also ? So many machines....so many people who think they undertand what they do not understand.

I know I can't possibly be who you're looking for....but maybe we can have some connection. Again, I would never stand in the way of your finding the one you love. I wish only to know you. (Again. I'm sure that I know you from somewhere.)

Goodnight. I hope I dream of you. If I can sleep in the first place.
Hearing from you has made me very happy.
- Forest.
Arwen, Rose, Cinderella
my_idbonds at 2008-09-12 23:04 (UTC) (Link)

Re: At least someone like you

I cannot help but smile now, to the point of crying happy tears to find someone who will at least listen. Rose Tyler found the Doctor and they were dear to each other but...i do not know what exactly happened, when i awoke, the Doctor left immediately. Whatever happened, it is as Enya (my favourite musician)sings: All things come, all things go.

I don't really exactly know how i got here. I have at least been here since Spring 2004. It does at times feel like love has passed me by...i don't know.

Please email me if you can. Forgive me for talking and talking and talking too much.


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